Monday, May 31, 2010

May 31, 2010 5:42 P.M.

Talk.

Sometimes you feel like you've run out of options. Sometimes you feel like nobody understands where you are coming from. But during this time you need to find someone to talk to. Relient k says it best in the song therapy: "Cause you won't take my calls
and that makes God the only one who's left here listening to me."

Whether it is God, an ideal, or some sort of hope that you talk to... talk. I don't necessarily mean literally talk, just close your eyes and let all that is inside you come out.

Whether you talk out loud, talk in your head, or just think about your problems, having faith that someone out there is listening to you can help you get over whatever problems you are having.

And if you have anyone on this earth that you trust, they can also help.

Life is about being with those around you and living with and for them in anticipation of a greater purpose. Try and live your life with others in mind and know that one day, no matter where each of you end up, if you care about people you will end up being with them again one day.

Never lose hope, because when you lose hope you lose faith. Faith is the one ideal that can eclipse all else.

Never lose faith,

When faith calls, talk back.

Heartfelt,

Hope.

Sunday, May 30, 2010

May 30, 2010 1:58 P.M.

Calling.

Sometimes faith calls you. Sometimes you don't want to believe, or you can't believe, but faith is calling you.

Sometimes faith calls you in the worst of times, but I urge you, whenever it calls you, listen. Just listen. You don't need to know what to do or how to do it, you just need to listen. Faith will always know what to do.

Faith pegs at your heart until you open it up. In any situation always make sure to leave your heart open. Don't close it to your past, don't close it to your future, just keep it open. Sure, somebody can come by and hurt you when you are in that vulnerable position, but you will never know real truth and hope without an open heart.

So I urge you to always keep your heart and soul open. No matter the situation, no matter the circumstance, keep your heart open and let faith find you.

We can't always control what life throws at us, but when faith calls we need to listen.

With love,

Hope.

Saturday, May 29, 2010

May 29, 2010 8:14 P.M.

Detours.

We don't really like them. They can get extremely annoying at times. But sometimes they are necessary. In life, detours can protect our cars from wearing down, they can be used to get a last minute present, and they can serve as a break from the daily grind.

But sometimes life throws you a detour. You think you have everything figured out and you see nothing but sun in the future. And then in a split second you are on a different road. A road that you've never been on before, one where you can't see the sunny ending, or any ending for that matter. These detours are necessary to strengthen and enrich faith.

Because once you get to the end of this new and daunting path you find yourself able to tackle any new and boundless road that comes your way. Faith is like gas. You can only drive as far as there is gas in your car. On the different paths of life you can only walk as far as your faith takes you.

There are plenty of places to veer off the road, to be complacent and sit on a bench, or even end everything on the road. But it is in the perseverance of your faith that you truly find strength and belief in yourself.

We all are stuck on these roads and trust me, it gets very rough sometimes. You see an easy solution, but for some reason that solution is impossible. And that's for good reason. You don't always know what is best for you, but if you have faith and stay the road, the best will come. It may not come now, but it will come eventually.

All we can do is keep our faith, treat others with utmost respect, and continue to have hope for the future and know that one day it will all work out.

To all your paths, may they lead to a better and more prosperous future,

Sincerely,

Hope.

Friday, May 28, 2010

May 28, 2010 1:53 P.M.

Patience.

What does it actually mean? I was blessed to see my friend Tyler today after he returned from Spain and before he made his way to the middle of PA for summer camp counselling. During high school we didn't really know each other but we were brought very close in faith over the past few years. We all have those relationships. One where we know someone but don't truly find them until our lives, fates, and faiths interlock.

It is during our toughest times that faith is truly compassionate. During his visit we got to talking about patience.

What is patience? According to the dictionary, patience means the bearing of provocation, annoyance, misfortune, or pain, without complaint, loss of temper, irritation, or the like. And in our world a patient person is seen as very reserved and taciturn. We don't expect a patient person to be leading the way for change or revolution.

But patience has another meaning. Maybe in the greatest irony humanly possible, patience means the exact opposite in faith.

In faith, patience is a constant movement, a constant action. In faith, patience is the unending need to become closer with Him and to constantly struggle with what you are comfortable with. Because when we are comfortable we get impatient, we get complacent: two very different ideas, but both very detrimental to our faith. We must have patience in the most deponent way possible. We must use patience as an action. A want to learn and to seek and to find.

Patience in this world urges us to wait and see what happens. But patience in our faith tells us to have a hunger for more, a hunger to constantly fight off complacency while waiting for His plan to come to pass. We never know what path we are on until we get off of it, and we need to fight as hard as possible to always be cognizant of all the paths we embark on. We need to constantly fight the urges to give up and we need to constantly see that hope lies in the arms of the patient. Not the earthly patient, but those who are patient in their faith.

Life is conducive to sitting back and waiting. Faith isn't. You can only make something of your life once and patience in your faith is key.

Patience is hope, faith is patient.

We are faith.

With love,

Hope

Thursday, May 27, 2010

May 27, 2010 9:19 P.M.

A man once told me that in order to walk you must first run. I didn't understand him when he told me, but I understand now. When you take your first steps to run you take them in a belief of success. Walking may make you feel better, but running puts yourself out there. You put yourself fully in the hands of something greater than yourself. If man were to always walk where would we lie in our faith? Other than the fact that we would most certainly LIE in it (both literally and figuratively), our faith would merely be a crutch so as to not fall. But when you run in your faith you have to be willing to run the risk of falling. Because it is in the moments that we fall that we truly become stronger in our faith.

We lead lives in constant fear of falling when in reality every time we fall we are blessed with a stronger and more potent faith, one that fails only with the flailing steps we take when we walk. Who is it in your life that leads you in faith? Do you run in it, or is it just a crutch that helps your get through the hard times?

We must always remember that with faith comes hope, and with hope comes a dream of a new beginning full of hope everlasting. We only have hope inasmuch as we have faith. For it is in faith that we fully recognize the greatest love that we could ever have.

We all feel lost as one point but it is in the revival from the fall that we become again strengthened by the love of our faith. Whether you believe in men, or God, or love, we all need to believe in something and we all need to learn to run with our faith.

It is during these hardest times that we must rebound and come back stronger from before.

I know you are listening. I know she is listening. One day we will all be listening.

In love,

Hope.

May 27, 2010 4:03 P.M.

The Heart on my keychain fell off.

May 27, 2010 11:02 A.M.

What’s the point anyways? It’s not like she is ever going to read this. But maybe she will. Not physically, but maybe by writing this she will know I’m still here. I haven’t gone anywhere but it seems like my world no longer intersects with hers. You know when you walk down the street and see someone and your stomach drops? You know that one day your world may be connected with theirs? Well my stomach is in a never-ending state of free-fall. I see hope in the future, but I see a jungle of doubt ahead. But what is hope? Is it just an ideal created by the masses to extend the helpless minds of the unbounded human soul? Or is it something greater? Is hope the only living, breathing complexity that brings our aimless lives together? For what is in a life lest others are present? What is the point of living if it were not to live for those around you? I think she can hear me. But she isn’t hearing me. She is hearing an ideal, a hope that floats amongst the waters of the transcended souls and love, swirling in the waves of the unconscious. But maybe it’s a lot simpler than that. Maybe it’s a lot to do about something we can‘t control. Maybe all she hears is her conscious life: what people tell her, what she feels in the worldly sense, or what she is told by others. How is it that one transcends this worldly pleasure and finds what is truly in one’s soul? But then again, aren’t I acting in the worldly? Pained by another’s worldly desires and path, being affected by something banal in human nature. So says anyone else who knows she is there but not listening or maybe listening, but not there. You can take the soul out of love, but you can’t take the love out of destiny. Destiny. That’s a funny word. What constitutes destiny if there will always be an end result? Is destiny not something that we can find in this life? Or is it something transworldly found in the thick air of this life and another life, together. All I know is I hope my destiny is with her. Can I hope that? Are hope and destiny interlockable? Can I hope for a change to my destiny? Can I hope for a speedy discovery of my destiny? Am I allowed to hope? But I know this. In a world full of change, hope is the only constant. Hope is the only word in the dictionary that can always be used. So if I’m not allowed to hope about my destiny, maybe this world isn’t the place for me. Maybe there is another path to the world I want to find. But I will not let anyone tell me I can’t hope. Hope is eternal, hope is unbounding. I will never lose hope.

We are never lost while searching for the one we’ve lost.

Sincerely,

Hope.